الاثنين، 5 يوليو 2010
الخميس، 15 أبريل 2010
Tae Yeon - Can you hear me
Tae Yeon - Can you hear me
although this hurts but a little,
tears form and my heart screams
if i pass infront of you , beside you
did you know that you are my whole world
what i needed is only you
but i cannot breathe when im in front of you
as if you werent belong to my destiny
as if this was just a fleeting moment
next to you who just let me go so easily
i go closer to you step by step
even though i cannot move at all
you make me restless
you make me cry
like a fool like a child
i want to just laugh it off instead
the closer i get to you
although i would get more scared
i guess i cannot stop this love from growing
why is it my love is late
why is it my love is hard
although im right infront of you , beside you
did you noe that you were my whole world
my eyes see only you
but when im in front of you , i always look away
as if you were my very last boy
as if it were my very last moment
next to you who just let me go so easily
i go closer to you again
although i can't move at all
you make me restless
you make me cry
like a fool like a child
i want to just laugh it off instead
the closer i get to you
although i would get more scared
i guess i cannot stop this love from growing
if even from a very long distance
i could look upon only you
thats what you call true love
if perhaps this yearning this longing
when it sounds when it touches
please just act like as if you didnt know
although the closer i get, the more scared i would get
i guess i cannot stop this love from growing
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الخميس، 1 أبريل 2010
By Myself - Tiffany

By Myself - Tiffany(English Translation)
please, just pass by pretending like you don't see me
please, don't even give me a glance
in the days that are like the sandy winds
don't give anything to me
folding away my one heart
hiding my one tear
like it's the first time we've seen each other, like we're strangers
just pass by. it has to be like that.
by myself, i say my love, send away my love
in the folds of the lonely accumulated memories, the tears hang
even if you're far away, i hope that you'll be happy
i bury my love deeply within my heart
in the next world, when we are born
then, we'll look at each other face to face
let's be born so that we don't lose weakly in front of fate again
so that i may be a flower in front of you
i'll sing a song for you
as one's girl, as one man's lover
i want to always live by your side
by myself, i say my love, send away my love
in the folds of the lonely accumulated memories, the tears hang
even if you're far away, i hope that you'll be happy
my love, deeply within my heart...
though it hurts, though it will hurt, i will never cry
because there is no such thing as farewell in my love
when this life ends, in the next world, us two
let's love, for sure. let's love, for sure.
us two.
By Myself - Tiffany (Romanization)
jeh bahl moh reun cheh jee nah gah yo
jeh bahl noon geel doh joo jee mah yo
moh rae bah rahm gah teun nahl deul eh
ah moo guht doh nae geh joo jee mah yo
nae mah eum hah nah juh buh doo goh
nae noon mool hah nah soom gyuh doo goh
chuh eum bohn guht chuh ruhm
naht suhn sah rahm chuh ruhm
jee nah gah yo geu rae yah mahn hae yo..
nah hohn jah suh sarang eul mahl hah goh
sarang eul boh nae goh
hohn jah ssah eun choo uhk eh
gyuhp gyuh bee noon mool ee mae yuh
muhn goh seh ee ssuh doh
geu dae haeng bohk hah geel
nah yae sarang eul... gah seum geep ee moo duh yo...
dah eum seh sang oo ree tae uh nah myuhn
geu ddaen sarang eu roh mah joo bwah yo
oon myung ah peh heem uhp shee jee neun eel
doo buhn dah shee uhp geh tae uh nah yo
nah geu dae ah peh kkoh chee dweh goh
nah geu dae wee hae noh rae hah goh
hahn sah rahm yuh jah roh
hahn nahm jah yuhn een eu roh
geu dae gyuh teh neul sahl goh sheep uh yo..
nah hohn jah suh sarang eul mahl hah goh
sarang eul boh nae goh
hohn jah ssah eun choo uhk eh
gyuhp gyuh bee noon mool ee mae yuh
muhn goh seh ee ssuh doh
geu dae haeng bohk hah geel
nah yae sarang eul... gah seum sohk geep ee...
ah pah doh ah pah jyuh doh
juhl dae nahn ool jee ah nah yo
bah roh nae sarang eun
ee byuhl ee uhp seu nee..
ee sahl mee kkeut nah goh
dah eum seh sang eh oo ree
kkohk sarang hae yo... kkohk sarang hae yo.. oo ree..
الأحد، 21 مارس 2010
الجمعة، 19 مارس 2010
SNSD - Chocolate (English Translation)
From the first moment I saw you
I must've wanted to touch you, to have you
Chocolate love
A new magical charm that you cannot deny
I'm hiding you away proudly, confidently
This is the first time I've felt like this
I've fallen for you completely
Oh
I got you baby I call I call it chocolate love
I want you, I want to have you
Sweet sweet chocolate love
To say you're impressive isn't enough
Everyone's going to be surprised
They're going to be knocked out
chocolate love brand new world
Can't describe you with just one word
Tempting so keenly and sharply
This is the first time I've felt like this
You've melted me completely
I got you baby I call I call it chocolate love
I want you I want to have you
Dizzy dizzy chocolate love
I got you baby I call I call it chocolate love
I want you I want to have you
Sweet sweet chocolate love
Oh
Oh You definitely don't look easy
I get the feeling
Romantically, like chocolate, oh, come to me
I got you baby I call I call it chocolate love
I want you I want to have you
Dizzy dizzy chocolate love
I got you baby I call I call it chocolate love
I want you I want to have you
Sweet sweet chocolate love
SNSD - Chocolate Love (Romanization)
neol cheoum bon sunganbuteo
manjigo shipeonabwa gajigo shipeo
chocolate love yosul gateun saeroun maeryeok gabuhal su itgeni
dodohage saechimhage neol gamchugo isseo
Ireo neuggim cheoeumingeol
bbajyeo beoryeojyo
Oh
I got you baby I call I call it chocolate love
neoreul wonhae gajillae dalkom dalkom chocolate love
meotjidan mallo bujokhan geol moduga nollal geoya sseureojil geoya
chocolate love brand new world
hanmadiro da seol myeon hal su obneun geol
mushimhage nalkarobge yuhokhago isseo
ireon neuggim cheoumin geol na noka beoryeojyo
I got you baby I call I call it chocolate love
neoreul wonhae gajillae ajjil ajjil chocolate love
I got you baby I call I call it chocolate love
neoreul wonhae gajillae dalkom dalkom chocolate love
Oh
Oh geudaen jebeob swipjin anhaboyeo hajiman neuggimi wayo
romantic hage chocolate cheoreom o geureohke naege wayo
Oh geudaen jebeob swipjin anhaboyeo hajiman neuggimi wayo
romantic hage chocolate cheoreom o geureohke naege wayo
I got you baby I call I call it chocolate love
neoreul wonhae gajillae ajjil ajjil chocolate love
I got you baby I call I call it chocolate love
neoreul wonhae gajillae dalkom dalkom chocolate love
OhFrom the first moment I saw you
I must've wanted to touch you, to have you
Chocolate love
A new magical charm that you cannot deny
I'm hiding you away proudly, confidently
This is the first time I've felt like this
I've fallen for you completely
Oh
I got you baby I call I call it chocolate love
I want you, I want to have you
Sweet sweet chocolate love
To say you're impressive isn't enough
Everyone's going to be surprised
They're going to be knocked out
chocolate love brand new world
Can't describe you with just one word
Tempting so keenly and sharply
This is the first time I've felt like this
You've melted me completely
I got you baby I call I call it chocolate love
I want you I want to have you
Dizzy dizzy chocolate love
I got you baby I call I call it chocolate love
I want you I want to have you
Sweet sweet chocolate love
Oh
Oh You definitely don't look easy
I get the feeling
Romantically, like chocolate, oh, come to me
I got you baby I call I call it chocolate love
I want you I want to have you
Dizzy dizzy chocolate love
I got you baby I call I call it chocolate love
I want you I want to have you
Sweet sweet chocolate love
SNSD - Chocolate Love (Romanization)
neol cheoum bon sunganbuteo
manjigo shipeonabwa gajigo shipeo
chocolate love yosul gateun saeroun maeryeok gabuhal su itgeni
dodohage saechimhage neol gamchugo isseo
Ireo neuggim cheoeumingeol
bbajyeo beoryeojyo
Oh
I got you baby I call I call it chocolate love
neoreul wonhae gajillae dalkom dalkom chocolate love
meotjidan mallo bujokhan geol moduga nollal geoya sseureojil geoya
chocolate love brand new world
hanmadiro da seol myeon hal su obneun geol
mushimhage nalkarobge yuhokhago isseo
ireon neuggim cheoumin geol na noka beoryeojyo
I got you baby I call I call it chocolate love
neoreul wonhae gajillae ajjil ajjil chocolate love
I got you baby I call I call it chocolate love
neoreul wonhae gajillae dalkom dalkom chocolate love
Oh
Oh geudaen jebeob swipjin anhaboyeo hajiman neuggimi wayo
romantic hage chocolate cheoreom o geureohke naege wayo
Oh geudaen jebeob swipjin anhaboyeo hajiman neuggimi wayo
romantic hage chocolate cheoreom o geureohke naege wayo
I got you baby I call I call it chocolate love
neoreul wonhae gajillae ajjil ajjil chocolate love
I got you baby I call I call it chocolate love
neoreul wonhae gajillae dalkom dalkom chocolate love
السبت، 27 فبراير 2010
SNSD - Oh! (English Translation)
SNSD - Oh! (English Translation)
I'm not the person you knew before, brand new sound
With the new me one more round
Dance dance dance till we run this town
Oppa oppa I'll be I'll be down down down down
Hey oppa look at me, just take a look at me
It's the first time I've spoken like this
I fixed my hair and put on make-up too
Why do you only not notice me?
Thump thump, my heart is beating
I just continue imagining
What should I do, having been so proud
I just want to tell you
Oh! Oh! Oh! Oh! Oppa, I love you
Ah! Ah! Ah! Ah! A lot, a lot
It's embarrassing so don't laugh
It's the truth so don't make fun either
I'm just saying stupid things again
I'm not the person you knew before, brand new sound
With the new me one more round
Dance dance dance till we run this town
Oppa oppa, I'll be I'll be down down down down
Oppa, just listen to me
Stop saying other things
Don't think of me just as a younger sister
You'll regret after a year
You don't know my thoughts at all
You don't realize and just joke around
What should I do, you immature person
Just listen to me
Oh! Oh! Oh! Oh! Oppa, I love you
Ah! Ah! Ah! Ah! A lot, a lot
It's embarrassing so don't laugh
It's the truth so don't make fun either
If you do that again, I might just cry
I'm not the person you knew before, brand new sound
Something about my heart is different today
Down down, don't put it off, I just get mad
Oppa oppa, if you keep this up, no no no no
Tell me boy boy love it it it it it it it ah!
Oh! Oh! Oh! Oh! Oppa, I love you
Ah! Ah! Ah! Ah! A lot, a lot
Oh! Oh! Oh! Oh! Oh! Oh! Oh! Oh! Oppa, I love you
Ah! Ah! Ah! Ah! Ah! Ah! Ah! Ah! A lot, a lot
I'm just saying stupid things again
Oh! Oh! Oh! Oh!
Ah! Ah! Ah! Ah!
Oh! Oh! Oh! Oh! Oh! Oh! Oh! Oh! Oppa, I love you
Ah! Ah! Ah! Ah! Ah! Ah! Ah! Ah! A lot, a lot
Oh! Oh! Oh! Oh! Oh! Oh! Oh! Oh! Oppa, I love you
Ah! Ah! Ah! Ah! Ah! Ah! Ah! Ah! A lot, a lot
Oh!
SNSD - Oh! (Romanization)
jeone aldeon naega anya brand new sound
saero wojin nawa hamgge one more round
Dance dance dance till we run this town
oppa oppa I'll be I'll be down down down down
Hey oppa na jom bwa nareul jom barabwa
cheomiya ireon nae maltu Ha
morido hago hwajangdo haetneunde
wae nuhman nuhman moreuni
dugeun dugeun gaseumi ddeollyeo wayo
jakgu jakgu sangsangman haneun geolyo
eoddeohke hana kotdae nopdeon naega
malhago shipeo
oh oh oh oh oppareul saranghae
ah ah ah ah manhi manhi hae
sujeubeuni jebal utji mayo
jinshimini nollijido marayo
ddo babogateun mal bbunya
jeone aldeon naega anya brand new sound
saerowojin nawa hamgge one more round
Dance dance dance till we run this town
oppa oppa I'll be I'll be down down down down
oppa jamgganman jamgganman deureobwa
jakgu ddan yegineun malgo
dongsaengeuroman saenggakhaji mara
il nyeon dwimyeon huhwe halgeol
mollamolla nae mameul jeonhyeo molla
nunchi obge jangnanman chineungeolyo
eoddeohke hana i cheorobneun sarama
deureobwa jeongmal
Oh oh oh oh oppareul saranghae
Ah ah ah ah manhi manhi hae
sujeubeuni jebal utji mayo
jinshimini nollijido marayo
ddo keureomyeon na uljido molla
jeone aldeon naega anya brand new sound
meonga dareun oneul maneun ddeugeoeun mam
Down down mirujima hwamanna
oppa oppa idaroneun no no no no
Tell me boy boy love it it it it it it it ah!
Oh oh oh oh oppareul saranghae
ah ah ah ah manhi manhi hae
oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oppareul saranghae
ah ah ah ah ah ah ah ah manhi manhi hae
ddo babogateun malbbunya
oh oh oh oh
ah ah ah ah
oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oppareul saranghae
ah ah ah ah ah ah ah ah manhi manhi hae
oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oppareul saranghae
ah ah ah ah ah ah ah ah manhi manhi
oh~
الأربعاء، 10 فبراير 2010
Learn to love you - leona lewis
Learn to love you - leona lewis
You’ve been sad
you’ve been hiding so long
don’t be scared
just you keep holding on
I’ve been there
Locked myself away
cant bare to face another day
your broken and ashamed
but if you search within yourself
you can
[Chorus]
Learn to love you
and you learn to heal the pain
let strength hold you
let it shelter you from rain
those shadows cast away your pride
find the light that shines inside
of you
So alone its so cold where you are
close your eyes
let the peace warm your heart
free your spirit
chase away your fears
and wipe away the lonely tears
feel your courage near
let it reach into your soul
and then
[Chorus]
Learn to love you
and you learn to heal the pain
let strength hold you
let it shelter you from rain
those shadows cast away your pride
find the light that shines inside
of you
[Bridge]
I know your hurting
your walls are caving in
but in time you can make it
I know your troubles
your worlds diminishing
but just listen to the voice within
and
[ChorusX2]
Learn to love you
and you learn to heal the pain
let strength hold you
let it shelter you from rain
those shadows cast away your pride
find the light that shines inside
of you..
you’ve been hiding so long
don’t be scared
just you keep holding on
I’ve been there
Locked myself away
cant bare to face another day
your broken and ashamed
but if you search within yourself
you can
[Chorus]
Learn to love you
and you learn to heal the pain
let strength hold you
let it shelter you from rain
those shadows cast away your pride
find the light that shines inside
of you
So alone its so cold where you are
close your eyes
let the peace warm your heart
free your spirit
chase away your fears
and wipe away the lonely tears
feel your courage near
let it reach into your soul
and then
[Chorus]
Learn to love you
and you learn to heal the pain
let strength hold you
let it shelter you from rain
those shadows cast away your pride
find the light that shines inside
of you
[Bridge]
I know your hurting
your walls are caving in
but in time you can make it
I know your troubles
your worlds diminishing
but just listen to the voice within
and
[ChorusX2]
Learn to love you
and you learn to heal the pain
let strength hold you
let it shelter you from rain
those shadows cast away your pride
find the light that shines inside
of you..
السبت، 6 فبراير 2010
I learned from you - miley cyrus and feat. Billy Ray Cyrus
I learned from you
[Miley]
Ooooo
Yeah
I didn't wanna listen to what you were sayin'
I thought that I knew all I need to know
I didn't realize that somewhere inside me
I knew you were right but I couldn't say so
I can take care of myself, yeah, you taught me well
[Chorus: (Miley)]
I learned from you that I do not crumble
I learned that strength is something you choose
All of the reasons to keep on believin'
There's no question, that's a lesson, that I learned from you
[Billy Ray]
We always don't agree on
What is the best way
To get to the place that we're going from here
But I can really trust you, and give you the distance,
to make your decisions without any fear
[Both]
I'm grateful for all of the times
You opened my eyes
[Chorus: (Both)]
I learned from you that I do not crumble
I learned that strength is something you choose
All of the reasons to keep on believin',
There's no question, that's a lesson
I learned from you
[Both]
You taught me to stand on my own
[Miley] and I thank you for that
[Both]
You saved me, you made me,
and now that I'm looking back
[Miley] I can say
[Both] woooaaahhhh!
[Miley] Hmmmm... Hmmmm... Yeah!
[Both]
I learned from you that
[Miley] I learned from you
[Both]
I do not crumble
I learned that strength is something you choose
[Miley] something you choose
[Both]
All of the reasons to keep on believin',
[Miley] keep on believin'
There's no question, that's a lesson that I learned from you
[Miley]
Woooaaahhhh!
I learned from yoooouuu
I learned that strength is something you choose
[Billy Ray] something you choose
[Both]
All of the reasons to keep on believin',
There's no question, that's a lesson that I learned from you
[Miley] yeah!
[Both]
I learned from you
Miley Cyrus - I Miss You lyrics
Miley Cyrus - I Miss You lyrics
Sha la la la la
Sha la la la la
You used to call me your angel
Said I was sent straight down from heaven
You'd hold me close in your arms
I love the way you felt so strong
I never wanted you to leave
I wanted you to stay here holdin' me
I miss you
I miss your smile
And I still shed a tear every once in a while
And even though it's different now
You're still here some how
My heart wont let you go
And I need you to know
I miss you
Sha la la la la
I miss you
You used to call me your dreamer
And now I'm livin' out my dream
Oh how I wish you could see
Everything thats happenin' for me
I'm thinkin' back on the past
It's true the time is flyin' by too fast
I miss you
I miss your smile
And I still shed a tear every once in a while
And even though it's different now
You're still here some how
My heart wont let you go
And I need you to know
I miss you
Sha la la la la
I miss you
I know you're in a better place, yeah
But I wish that I could see your face, oh
I know you're where you need to be
even though it's not here with me
I miss you
I miss your smile
And I still shed a tear every once in a while
And even though it's different now
You're still here some how
My heart wont let you go
And I need you to know
I miss you
Sha la la la la
I miss you
I miss you
I miss your smile
And I still shed a tear every once in a while
And even though it's different now
You're still here some how
My heart wont let you go
And I need you to know
I miss you
Sha la la la la
I miss you
I miss you oh
Sha la la la la
You used to call me your angel
Said I was sent straight down from heaven
You'd hold me close in your arms
I love the way you felt so strong
I never wanted you to leave
I wanted you to stay here holdin' me
I miss you
I miss your smile
And I still shed a tear every once in a while
And even though it's different now
You're still here some how
My heart wont let you go
And I need you to know
I miss you
Sha la la la la
I miss you
You used to call me your dreamer
And now I'm livin' out my dream
Oh how I wish you could see
Everything thats happenin' for me
I'm thinkin' back on the past
It's true the time is flyin' by too fast
I miss you
I miss your smile
And I still shed a tear every once in a while
And even though it's different now
You're still here some how
My heart wont let you go
And I need you to know
I miss you
Sha la la la la
I miss you
I know you're in a better place, yeah
But I wish that I could see your face, oh
I know you're where you need to be
even though it's not here with me
I miss you
I miss your smile
And I still shed a tear every once in a while
And even though it's different now
You're still here some how
My heart wont let you go
And I need you to know
I miss you
Sha la la la la
I miss you
I miss you
I miss your smile
And I still shed a tear every once in a while
And even though it's different now
You're still here some how
My heart wont let you go
And I need you to know
I miss you
Sha la la la la
I miss you
I miss you oh
الخميس، 21 يناير 2010
Touch the sky - Girls' Generation Lyrics
Touch the sky
(All) Oh baby Touch the sky deo nopee narawa
hanbeonman nahl wihae nimaeum modoo marhaejwuh
nuhl moreudeon shigan songnan ijeh uhmneunguhl
igeochin sesang kkeut geu gotkkaji
nal deryugajoollae Forever
(TaeYeon) harooehdo yeordoobeonsshik nuhreul geurineun ineukkimi
(SeoHyun) eebamsogeh jeonhaejineun geu nari ohndamyeon
(Jessica) noonmoordo gwaenchannah nan gippeohalteni
(Tiffany) jogeum himi deureodo hansang eegyeonaelteni
(All) Oh baby dreams come true jamdeursoo uhmneun kkoom
hanjoorgi bicheoreom geudaero nareul anajwuh
noonmoori heureuneun shigando
nuhwa hamkkeramyeon nan ooseursooissuh naegero wah
yeongwoneul yaksoghae Be my love
(Sunny) oh darkomhan yaegideulloh
(Jessica) oh doormaneh soksagimdoh
(TaeYeon) doo noonapeh dagaol naeireul kkoomkoogehae
(All) Oh baby Touch the sky deo nopee narawa
hanbeonman nahl wihae nimaeum modoo marhaejwuh
nuhl moreudeon shigan songnan ijeh uhmneunguhl
igeochin sesang kkeut geu gotkkaji
nal deryugajoollae Forever
hanbeonman nahl wihae nimaeum modoo marhaejwuh
nuhl moreudeon shigan songnan ijeh uhmneunguhl
igeochin sesang kkeut geu gotkkaji
nal deryugajoollae Forever
(TaeYeon) harooehdo yeordoobeonsshik nuhreul geurineun ineukkimi
(SeoHyun) eebamsogeh jeonhaejineun geu nari ohndamyeon
(Jessica) noonmoordo gwaenchannah nan gippeohalteni
(Tiffany) jogeum himi deureodo hansang eegyeonaelteni
(All) Oh baby dreams come true jamdeursoo uhmneun kkoom
hanjoorgi bicheoreom geudaero nareul anajwuh
noonmoori heureuneun shigando
nuhwa hamkkeramyeon nan ooseursooissuh naegero wah
yeongwoneul yaksoghae Be my love
(Sunny) oh darkomhan yaegideulloh
(Jessica) oh doormaneh soksagimdoh
(TaeYeon) doo noonapeh dagaol naeireul kkoomkoogehae
(All) Oh baby Touch the sky deo nopee narawa
hanbeonman nahl wihae nimaeum modoo marhaejwuh
nuhl moreudeon shigan songnan ijeh uhmneunguhl
igeochin sesang kkeut geu gotkkaji
nal deryugajoollae Forever
Oh baby
Touch the sky
Fly higher
Just for once tell me everything
On your mind
In the times when I didn't know you
I wasn't there
Until the end of this world
Do you want to take me Forever
Every twelve times a day
The feeling of missing you
If the day comes when the sending of this feeling
Is spread through the sky
Tears are OK
I'll still be happy
There might be hard times
But I will always fight it
(Touch the sky)
Oh baby,
Dreams come true
Dream without sleep
Just like how the raindrops are together
Hold me like that
The time when the tear flows
if I'm with you i can laugh
Come to me
I promise you forever
Be my love
Oh with delicious stories
Oh with also our whispers
Makes me dream of the tomorrow
That comes right before our eyes
(Touch the sky)
Oh baby
Touch the sky
Fly higher
Just for once tell me everything
On your mind
In the times when I didn't know you
I wasn't there
Until the end of this world
Do you want to take me Forever
الأربعاء، 20 يناير 2010
Baby Baby Girls' Generation lyrics
baby baby
Tteollineun mam goma-un mam
gadeuki damaseo
jel yeppeun pojang soge
[jeonhago shipeunde]
anil geoya useul geoya
eongttunghan sangsang ttaemune
mae-il miruneun babo
[wae na gatjjanke]
neul uttteon moseup niga
nae mam humchin geo
jjeongmallo neomu maldo an doeneunde
please baby baby baby
geudaega nae ane
neomudo gipi deureowa
bo-ilkka ireon nae sujubeun gobaek
baby baby baby
salmyeoshi dagaga
jageun mokssoriro gakka-i
neoman deullige malhaejul ge
dapttapan mam mi-anhan mam
eonjenga jeonhae jul
mae-il ssahyeoganeun seonmul
[jeonhago shipeunde]
anil geoya shireul geoya
geunyang nal pyeonhan chingu isangeun jeoldae anya
[geureomyeon eojjae]
neul unneun moseup ni mam
humchigo shipeo
jeongmallo neomu deullyeojugo shipeo
please baby baby baby
geudaega nae ane
neomudo gipi deureowa
bo-ilkka ireon nae sujubeun gobaek
baby baby baby
salmyeoshi dagaga
budeureon nunuseumeuro
neo-ui mame seumyeogal geoya
baby baby baby
[baby baby baby]
sashil neodo al geol
dagagaji motaneun nal
eoneusaenga na-ege
neo daga-ogo inneun geol
pogeunhan geu pumeuro
nal kkok ana jweo
eo eo-uweo
please baby baby baby
geudaega nae ane
neomudo gipi deureowa
bo-ilkka ireon nae sujubeun gobaek
baby baby baby
salmyeoshi dagaga
jageun mokssoriro gakka-i
neoman deullige malhaejul ge
please baby baby baby
naega geudae ane
sojunghan sarangmaneuro
gadeuki chaeweo noko shipeun georyo
baby baby baby
ijeneun geudae-ui
nugudo bureopjji aneul
gajang yeppeun yeojachinguya
baby baby baby
gadeuki damaseo
jel yeppeun pojang soge
[jeonhago shipeunde]
anil geoya useul geoya
eongttunghan sangsang ttaemune
mae-il miruneun babo
[wae na gatjjanke]
neul uttteon moseup niga
nae mam humchin geo
jjeongmallo neomu maldo an doeneunde
please baby baby baby
geudaega nae ane
neomudo gipi deureowa
bo-ilkka ireon nae sujubeun gobaek
baby baby baby
salmyeoshi dagaga
jageun mokssoriro gakka-i
neoman deullige malhaejul ge
dapttapan mam mi-anhan mam
eonjenga jeonhae jul
mae-il ssahyeoganeun seonmul
[jeonhago shipeunde]
anil geoya shireul geoya
geunyang nal pyeonhan chingu isangeun jeoldae anya
[geureomyeon eojjae]
neul unneun moseup ni mam
humchigo shipeo
jeongmallo neomu deullyeojugo shipeo
please baby baby baby
geudaega nae ane
neomudo gipi deureowa
bo-ilkka ireon nae sujubeun gobaek
baby baby baby
salmyeoshi dagaga
budeureon nunuseumeuro
neo-ui mame seumyeogal geoya
baby baby baby
[baby baby baby]
sashil neodo al geol
dagagaji motaneun nal
eoneusaenga na-ege
neo daga-ogo inneun geol
pogeunhan geu pumeuro
nal kkok ana jweo
eo eo-uweo
please baby baby baby
geudaega nae ane
neomudo gipi deureowa
bo-ilkka ireon nae sujubeun gobaek
baby baby baby
salmyeoshi dagaga
jageun mokssoriro gakka-i
neoman deullige malhaejul ge
please baby baby baby
naega geudae ane
sojunghan sarangmaneuro
gadeuki chaeweo noko shipeun georyo
baby baby baby
ijeneun geudae-ui
nugudo bureopjji aneul
gajang yeppeun yeojachinguya
baby baby baby
떨리는 맘 고마운 맘
가득히 담아서
젤 예쁜 포장 속에
전하고 싶은데
아닐 거야 웃을 거야
엉뚱한 상상 때문에
매일 미루는 바보
왜 나 같잖게
늘 웃던 모습 니가
내 맘 훔친 거
정말로 너무 말도 안 되는데
Please baby baby baby
그대가 내 안에
너무도 깊이 들어와
보일까 이런 내 수줍은 고백
baby baby baby
살며시 다가가
작은 목소리로 가까이
너만 들리게 말해줄 게
답답한 맘 미안한 맘
언젠가 전해 줄
매일 쌓여가는 선물
전하고 싶은데
아닐 거야 싫을 거야
그냥 날 편한 친구 이상은
절대 아냐 그러면 어째
늘 웃는 모습 니 맘
훔치고 싶어
정말로 너무 들려주고 싶어
Please baby baby baby
그대가 내 안에
너무도 깊이 들어와
보일까 이런 내 수줍은 고백
baby baby baby
살며시 다가가
부드런 눈웃음으로
너의 맘에 스며갈 거야
baby baby baby
baby baby baby
사실 너도 알 걸
다가가지 못하는 날
어느샌가 나에게
너 다가오고 있는 걸
포근한 그 품으로
날 꼭 안아 줘
어 어우워
Please baby baby baby
그대가 내 안에
너무도 깊이 들어와
보일까 이런 내 수줍은 고백
baby baby baby
살며시 다가가
작은 목소리로 가까이
너만 들리게 말해줄 게
Please baby baby baby
내가 그대 안에
소중한 사랑만으로
가득히 채워 놓고 싶은 걸요
baby baby baby
이제는 그대의
누구도 부럽지 않을
가장 예쁜 여자친구야
baby baby baby
가득히 담아서
젤 예쁜 포장 속에
전하고 싶은데
아닐 거야 웃을 거야
엉뚱한 상상 때문에
매일 미루는 바보
왜 나 같잖게
늘 웃던 모습 니가
내 맘 훔친 거
정말로 너무 말도 안 되는데
Please baby baby baby
그대가 내 안에
너무도 깊이 들어와
보일까 이런 내 수줍은 고백
baby baby baby
살며시 다가가
작은 목소리로 가까이
너만 들리게 말해줄 게
답답한 맘 미안한 맘
언젠가 전해 줄
매일 쌓여가는 선물
전하고 싶은데
아닐 거야 싫을 거야
그냥 날 편한 친구 이상은
절대 아냐 그러면 어째
늘 웃는 모습 니 맘
훔치고 싶어
정말로 너무 들려주고 싶어
Please baby baby baby
그대가 내 안에
너무도 깊이 들어와
보일까 이런 내 수줍은 고백
baby baby baby
살며시 다가가
부드런 눈웃음으로
너의 맘에 스며갈 거야
baby baby baby
baby baby baby
사실 너도 알 걸
다가가지 못하는 날
어느샌가 나에게
너 다가오고 있는 걸
포근한 그 품으로
날 꼭 안아 줘
어 어우워
Please baby baby baby
그대가 내 안에
너무도 깊이 들어와
보일까 이런 내 수줍은 고백
baby baby baby
살며시 다가가
작은 목소리로 가까이
너만 들리게 말해줄 게
Please baby baby baby
내가 그대 안에
소중한 사랑만으로
가득히 채워 놓고 싶은 걸요
baby baby baby
이제는 그대의
누구도 부럽지 않을
가장 예쁜 여자친구야
baby baby baby
Filled with nervousness and gratitude in a pretty wrapper
(I want to give it to you.)
No, you will laugh because of an absurd imagination.
A fool that keeps holding it off.
(It sounds like me.)
Your smile, you stole my heart.
It really doesn’t make sense.
Please baby baby baby.
You are inside me. You came in so deep.
Afraid you might see my bashful confession.
Baby baby baby
Going to you cautiously.
In a small voice I will only let you hear
I will convey my stuffy and sorrowful heart one day.
The gifts that pile up everyday.
(I want to give it to you.)
No, you won’t like it. You don’t think of me anymore than a friend.
(Why are you doing that?)
When I see you laugh, I want to steal you.
I really want to let you hear it.
Please baby baby baby.
You are inside me. You came in so deep.
Afraid you might see my bashful confession.
Baby baby baby
Going to you cautiously.
With my eye laugh I will go into your heart~
Baby baby baby
Baby baby baby
You probably know I can’t come forward.
I see that you are coming to me
Hug me with your warm arms~
Please baby baby baby.
You are inside me. You came in so deep.
Afraid you might see my bashful confession.
Baby baby baby
Going to you cautiously.
In a small voice I will only let you hear
Please baby baby baby
I just want to fill it with a special love
Baby baby baby
Now you’re my pretty girlfriend
I want be jealous of any one
Baby baby baby
الأحد، 17 يناير 2010
Kim Dong Wook - My Heart Is Cursing (k.A.E) Lyrics
Kim Dong Wook - My Heart Is Cursing
Jagguman geudaereul chatneun
Naemam dallaedorok
Jogeum deo useoyo
Sesangi geudael jiltuhadorok
Jagguman geudael bureuneun naemami
Yoksimdo naeji motalteni
Gaseumi yokae
Saranghandan maljocha motanigga
Nunmuli teojyeo
Geuriumi heureugo heureunigga
Gasicheoreom moke geollyeobeorin seulpeun geu malman
Harujongil gwitgae maemdolgoman itjyo
Wae hapil geudaejyo
Geudaereul saranghage dwaetneunji
Gogael jeoeodo anirago haedo
Imi geudael notji motaneyo
Gaseumi yokae
Saranghandan maljocha motanigga
Nunmuli teojyeo
Geuriumi heureugo heureunigga
Gasicheoreom moke geollyeobeorin seulpeun geu malman
Harujongil gwitgae maemdolgoman itjyo
Saranghaeyo geudael saranghaeyo
yeongwoni
Geudae nal boji anneundedo
Sucheonbeonssik geudael bureugo bulleobwado moreujyo
Hangsang geujarieseo geudael gidaryeodo moreujyo
Babocheoreom geujeo baraboneun motnan sarangeul
Geudaeneun moreusijyo amuri bulleodo
++++++++++++++++++++++++
Smile a little more
With a happy smile
With a happy smile
That keeps looking for you So that you can comfort my heart
So that the world would be jealous Smile a little more
Would not be able to become greedy So that my heart that keeps calling for you
because I can’t even say I love you
My tears burst
because my longing for you flows and flows
Only that sad phrase has been struck to my throat like a thorn
And remain in my ears the whole day My heart curses at me
Why does it have to be you
Why did I have to love you
I can’t let you go Even if I shake my head, deny it
because I can’t even say I love you
My tears burst,
because my longing for you flows and flows
Only that sad phrase has been struck to my throat like a thorn
And remain in my ears the whole day My heart curses at me,
Forever
Even if you don’t look at me
Even if I say it a thousand times, you don’t know
Even if I wait at the same spot, you don’t know
My foolish love that simply looks at you like an idiot
You don’t know, No matter what
.. I love you, I love you
+++++++++++++++++++++++++++
ابتسم اكثر
ابتسانه سعيده
لكي تريح قلبي
الذي يستمر بالنظر اليك
ابتسم اكثر قليلا
هكذا سيكون العالم غيور
لذلك قلبي مازال يؤلمني
لن يكون قادرا على ان يصبح طماع
قلبي يؤلمني لاني لا استطيع قول احبك ..
دموعي تفجرت لان شوقي يغمر و ينتشر
انها مثل الشوكه في حلقي
تلك الكلمات الحزينه
طوال اليوم هذه الكلمات تدور في اذناي
لماذا انت .؟
لماذا وقعت في حبك .؟
حتى لو هززت راسي حتى لو قلت لا ؟
فات الاوان لادعك تذهب؟
قلبي يؤلمني لاني لا استطيع قول احبك ..
دموعي تفجرت لان شوقي يغمر و ينتشر
انها مثل الشوكه في حلقي
تلك الكلمات الحزينه
طوال اليوم هذه الكلمات تدور في اذناي
احبك احبك إلى الابد
حتى اذا لم تراني
اناديك الف مره لاكنك لا تعرف
انتظرك وانا واقف هنا دائما لاكنك لاتعرف
كالاحمق حبي الاحمق يراك انت فقط
لكنك لا تعرف
مهما ناديتك كثيرا
الأربعاء، 13 يناير 2010
Without a words
Without a words
I Should've just looked away
I should've just ignored it
Like something I couldn't see
LIke something so beneath me
Why did I look at you at all
I should've just ran away (and)
I should've acted like I
Couldn't hear you at all
I wish that I could silence
That voice thats calling out to me
(chorus)
Without a word, you showed me what its like
To feel so alone, then suddenly inside
A feeling overcomes
That I cannot control
I can't escape what i've become
Without a word, this blessing they call love
Turns into a dreaded painful curse
You left me standing here
Used up and thrown away
What can I say? There are no words
You left me without words
(verse2)
Its not been long since then
And I've start a new beginning
But then I see your face
So close but so far away
My heart it went back again
Without a word, Goodbye finds my way
It finds me and it laughs in my face
The game is set and done
neither of us won
But I'm the only one in pain
Without a word, You took me by surprised
Without a word, everything changed
it'll never be the same
never be the same
My mouth is closed there are no words
You left me without words
(end)
Maybe I'll just let it hurt
Sink, like a lesson learned
Soon it will all fade to gray
leaving nothing but I should've just ignored it
Like something I couldn't see
LIke something so beneath me
Why did I look at you at all
I should've just ran away (and)
I should've acted like I
Couldn't hear you at all
I wish that I could silence
That voice thats calling out to me
(chorus)
Without a word, you showed me what its like
To feel so alone, then suddenly inside
A feeling overcomes
That I cannot control
I can't escape what i've become
Without a word, this blessing they call love
Turns into a dreaded painful curse
You left me standing here
Used up and thrown away
What can I say? There are no words
You left me without words
(verse2)
Its not been long since then
And I've start a new beginning
But then I see your face
So close but so far away
My heart it went back again
Without a word, Goodbye finds my way
It finds me and it laughs in my face
The game is set and done
neither of us won
But I'm the only one in pain
Without a word, You took me by surprised
Without a word, everything changed
it'll never be the same
never be the same
My mouth is closed there are no words
You left me without words
(end)
Maybe I'll just let it hurt
Sink, like a lesson learned
Soon it will all fade to gray
Memories
الثلاثاء، 12 يناير 2010
only human
only human
On the opposite coast of sadness
is something called a smile
On the opposite coast of sadness
is something called a smile
But before we can go there,
is there something we're waiting for?
In order to chase our dreams, we can't have a reason to run away
We've got to go, to that far away summer's day
If we find it tomorrow, we can't sigh
Because like a boat that opposes the stream
we have to walk straight on
In a place worn down by sadness
something called a miracle, is waiting
Yet we are still searching
for the sunflower that grows at the end of spring
The warrior who awaits the morning light
before he can clasp it with red nails, his tears glitter and fall
Even if we've grown used to loneliness
only relying on the light of the moon
We have to fly away with featherless wing
just go foward, just a little further
As the rainclouds break
the wet streets sparkling
Although it brings only darkness
A powerful, powerful light
helps push us to walk on
is something called a smile
On the opposite coast of sadness
is something called a smile
But before we can go there,
is there something we're waiting for?
In order to chase our dreams, we can't have a reason to run away
We've got to go, to that far away summer's day
If we find it tomorrow, we can't sigh
Because like a boat that opposes the stream
we have to walk straight on
In a place worn down by sadness
something called a miracle, is waiting
Yet we are still searching
for the sunflower that grows at the end of spring
The warrior who awaits the morning light
before he can clasp it with red nails, his tears glitter and fall
Even if we've grown used to loneliness
only relying on the light of the moon
We have to fly away with featherless wing
just go foward, just a little further
As the rainclouds break
the wet streets sparkling
Although it brings only darkness
A powerful, powerful light
helps push us to walk on
by:k
one litter of tears
one day, when the time comes
I want to sleep amongst the flowers...✿
فتاه تبلغ 15 عاماً (ايكوتشي آيا)
لها مرض في المخيخ والحبل الشوكي
اسمه Spinocerebellar Degeneration
هذا المرض حقيقي وهو عباره عن عطل في الدماغ
فتدريجيا تفقد ايا التوازن
وعندها لن تستطيع الحراكـ
ولا تقدير المسافات
ولن تستطيع نطق الاحرف من مخارجها
وهكذا الى ان يتوقف قلبها..3>
اسمه Spinocerebellar Degeneration
هذا المرض حقيقي وهو عباره عن عطل في الدماغ
فتدريجيا تفقد ايا التوازن
وعندها لن تستطيع الحراكـ
ولا تقدير المسافات
ولن تستطيع نطق الاحرف من مخارجها
وهكذا الى ان يتوقف قلبها..3>
one litter of tears
لا أستطيع ان احدث اصوات عاليه بعد الأن.لا أعلم إذا ماكانت عضلات بطني اصبحت ضعيفه او ان مساحه تنفسي اصبحت اصغر
ربما لان الاماكن التي اذهب اليها محدده,لكني لا اعلم ماذا اريد.لكن...أنا اريد أن افعل اي شيء.أريد ان افعل اي شيء بشده لدرجه انني لم اعد اطيق هذا.يداي وقدماي اصبحوا كما لو كانوا مقيدين.يألمني عندما يكون الناس لطفاء معي.
يوكوشان-أتت معي الى الحمام.لقد جعلتها تتأخر 5 دقائق.بعد ان قلت لها "انا أســــفه! أنا أســفه جدا"
غضبي من"انني لا استطيع ان افعل الاشياء البسيطه؟وإحساسي بأنني غبيه ومكتئبه"يتراكم في داخلي
الضحيه هي أنسان يملك قلب ايضا!
عدم القدره على السماع ليس سوء حظ.انه مناسب..
اريد ان اكون سعيده,يجب ان اجد شيئا استطيع ان التنافس على قدم المساواة مع أي انسان عادي.انتي لازلتي في 16.انتي لازلتي شابه لذا حاولي بجهد.
أثناء فتره الراحه,لقد اعطينا فرصه الاختيار مابين 45 من رفقاء الصف ,44 معلم لم ارد ان ابقى بعيدا لذا قررت ان اعمل عمل ملائكه .انا استطيع ان التقط النفايه الملقاه على الأرض,وايضا إغلاق النافذه.إذا عزمت عليه,استطيع عمل الكثير من الاشياء
أنا على وشك ان اخسر امام المرض.
لا! أنا لن أخسر!مهما حاولت ان امثل السعاده,عندما ارى معلمتي,اختاي,اخي وكل اصدقائي يمشون بشكل طبيعي,اشعر بالتعاسه.
أريد ان اشاهد شيء يؤثر على قلبي,لذا ذهبت لوحدي لأشاهد سباق (مارثون),لكن قد جلعني هذا اشعر بالكآبه أكثر.لقد احسست بشعور تعيس في التفكير ب(الركض) كل اصدقائي سوف يتركونني.لقد بدءت افهم كيف الاستفاده من جسد غير صحي.
لقد قررت ان اقراء كتابي المفضل بينما اجلس خارجا خلال الفسحه
لقد حاولت ان انسخ ما استطيع من الكتاب"Hello Miss(Ojyousan Konnichiwa)," (Kusanagi Taizou). حاليا انا اقراء "I'm 20years old (Bokuwa 20sai)," (Oka Shinji) وافكر انني لن انتحر ابدا.
لا استطيع العيش بدون تفكير.لا أستطيع ان اقول بكل بساطه "اوه حسنا"
حتى المشيء..انا افكر بأفضل الطرق التي يمكنني المشي بها,او حتى الطريق الذي اسلكه يجب ان لايكون صعب علي,او حتى النظافه ايضا...انا افكر في طرق انظف بها بنفسي.
جسدي اصبح اكثر تصلبا.لا اعلم هل هو البرد ,أو ان مرضي اصبح اسوء,لكني اقع حتى لو انني امسك بشيء.لقد اصبح الوضع خطيرا لي لأذهب الى الطريق.الأن امي تحتاج الى توصلني الى المدرسه.قبل الذهاب الى العمل,تمر بالمدرسه.اتعلق على كتفها لأقف.ومن ثم تسرع الى صفي لتضع حقيبتي المدرسيه وغدائي.ومن ثم انا اشق طريقي ببطء الى الصف مرتكزه على الجدار.
بعد الانتهاء من الدرسه الساعه6 انتظر في محل الحلوى في الجهه المقابله للمدرسه.المراءه في المحل تخبرني بلطف انني استطيع حل وجباتي او القراءه.الأطفال الذين يتدربون يمرون بالمحل اثناء عودتهم.الوضع مخجل قليلا لكن يجب ان اتحمل لانه لا يوجد خيار اخر.
لقد سقطت مره اخرى عندما كنت ذاهبه الى الصف..لقد جرحت مرفقي الايمن بجروح طفيفه.
سيشان ساعدتني للنهوض.قبل ان اقل لها "شكرا" الدموع بدءت بالتساقط من عيناي ولم استطع ان اترجمها الى كلمات.
شيء مخيف عندما تمر ساعاتان بينما أنا استغرق في أحلام اليقظه وأشاهد الناس يأتون وأستمع الى محادثاتهم,آآآآآه أنا أضيع الوقت.
مؤلم هو ركوب الباص الى المدرسه,لكنه يشعرني بأنني لازلت "إنسان"
كنت أمشي (مع ان صديقتي كانت تساعدن)
إلا أنني أحسست بشخص يراقبني.
أستمريت بالمشيء بأحساس غريب.
و أستمريت بالمشي قليلا مع الشعور بعدم الارتياح عندما نظرت الى ما خلف ظهري ، سمعت صوت "محزن مظهرها...هل هي غبيه؟"
إمراءه بلا يدين تلد طلفه بصحه جيده.تغير الحفاض وترضع طفلتها رضاعه طبيعيه بأستخدام قدميها.لست متأكده هل يفترض أن أشعر بالسعاده من أجلها,لكن القلق يحاصرني.
أحس بقدمي اليمنى متصلبه.هذا يشعرني بإحباط
أصعب شيء علي هو ان امشي من فصل إلى آخر.يجب أن أستقبل المساعده من اصدقائي بالصف أو التشبث بأي شيء بينما أنا اشق طريقي خلال الممرات الطويله او السلالم.إنه يستغرق وقتا طويلا.لدرجه انني تسبب بتأخير أصدقائي عن الصف. وقت الغداء مشكله أيضا.الكل ينتهي من طعامه في خمس دقائق,أنا فقط احصل على لقمه او اثنتان في خمس دقائق.ليس هذا فقط بل علي ان ا أخذ الدواء ايضا.
عندما أحس بأنني لن استطيع ان انهي غدائي في الوقت المناسب.مباشرا ابتلع الدواء,ومن ثم انظر حولي,إذا رأيت شخص ما لازال يأكل ,أحاول قدر المستطاع ان اكل بسرعه.أتسأل كم من المرات انهيت غدائي فيها.
أحس بسؤء لاني لم انهي الغداء الذي حضر لي.لـــكن لايوجد وقت كافي.
عندما احاول ان ا أكل البقايا في البيت يقال لي"اعطه لكورو.تستطيعين الاكل عند العشاء"
آه ه ه ياله من هدر.غدائي كأنه ايا+كورو
يوكو شان و سي شان دائما يهبون للمساعده وكأنهم ظلالي.
"آسفه لتسبب بالمشاكل دائما"
"نحن أصدقاء ألسنا كذالك؟؟"
هذا فعلا يجعني احسن بكثير.
"الأصدقاء متعادلون" لكن ليس دائما.خصوصا في حالتي,يجب ان احمل او لن استطيع اكمال يومي الدراسي.
واخير فهمت لماذا الاساتذه يقولون لي دائما" ضعي جهد اكثر في محاوله المشيء معتمده على نفسك"
هنالك طريق واحد فقط لي.
ليس لي الحق في إختيار خياراتي.لن استطيع ابدا ان اختار ماقد يختاره اصدقائي.
إذا اقتعت نفسي بأنني سوف اختار ما قد يختاروه لن يكون لي اختياري الخاص.ورغبتي سوف تختفي.
اريد ان اذهب الى مكان ما...
اريد ان اضرب شيء ما بقوه هائله,اريد ان ارفع صوتي واصرخ مثل المجنونه,ثم اقع واضحك
الى اين اريد الذهاب....
المكتبه,صاله السينما,كافيه(اريد ان اجلس في الزاويه واشرب عصير الليمون المثلج) لكن في نهايه الامر ,لا أستطيع ان اذهبا لى اي مكان وحدي.
أحس بالشفقه,التعاسه ولا أستطيع ان افعل اي شيء لتحسينه. أنــــا فقط أبكي.
انا طفله كبيره.لكن ليس بيدي حيله الطفله الباكيه بداخلي لايمكن فصلها عني.
الأن استطيع البكاء بدون اي صوت وأنفي لن يتحول الى اللون الأحمر طلما لا اطيل في البكاء.لا شيء جيد في البكاء.انه يجعلني متعبه,وعيناي تنتفخان,وانفي ينغلق وهذا يسلب مني شهيتي...
مؤخرا اصبحت افتعل المشاجرات مع الناس.العلاقات مع الناس معقده.ليس لان هناك شيء سيء في الوضع وإنما الوصع ازداد سوء من دون ان انتبه له.
اعتقد بأنه مثل مرضي
*دموع*
ربما لان الاماكن التي اذهب اليها محدده,لكني لا اعلم ماذا اريد.لكن...أنا اريد أن افعل اي شيء.أريد ان افعل اي شيء بشده لدرجه انني لم اعد اطيق هذا.يداي وقدماي اصبحوا كما لو كانوا مقيدين.يألمني عندما يكون الناس لطفاء معي.
يوكوشان-أتت معي الى الحمام.لقد جعلتها تتأخر 5 دقائق.بعد ان قلت لها "انا أســــفه! أنا أســفه جدا"
غضبي من"انني لا استطيع ان افعل الاشياء البسيطه؟وإحساسي بأنني غبيه ومكتئبه"يتراكم في داخلي
الضحيه هي أنسان يملك قلب ايضا!
عدم القدره على السماع ليس سوء حظ.انه مناسب..
اريد ان اكون سعيده,يجب ان اجد شيئا استطيع ان التنافس على قدم المساواة مع أي انسان عادي.انتي لازلتي في 16.انتي لازلتي شابه لذا حاولي بجهد.
أثناء فتره الراحه,لقد اعطينا فرصه الاختيار مابين 45 من رفقاء الصف ,44 معلم لم ارد ان ابقى بعيدا لذا قررت ان اعمل عمل ملائكه .انا استطيع ان التقط النفايه الملقاه على الأرض,وايضا إغلاق النافذه.إذا عزمت عليه,استطيع عمل الكثير من الاشياء
أنا على وشك ان اخسر امام المرض.
لا! أنا لن أخسر!مهما حاولت ان امثل السعاده,عندما ارى معلمتي,اختاي,اخي وكل اصدقائي يمشون بشكل طبيعي,اشعر بالتعاسه.
أريد ان اشاهد شيء يؤثر على قلبي,لذا ذهبت لوحدي لأشاهد سباق (مارثون),لكن قد جلعني هذا اشعر بالكآبه أكثر.لقد احسست بشعور تعيس في التفكير ب(الركض) كل اصدقائي سوف يتركونني.لقد بدءت افهم كيف الاستفاده من جسد غير صحي.
لقد قررت ان اقراء كتابي المفضل بينما اجلس خارجا خلال الفسحه
لقد حاولت ان انسخ ما استطيع من الكتاب"Hello Miss(Ojyousan Konnichiwa)," (Kusanagi Taizou). حاليا انا اقراء "I'm 20years old (Bokuwa 20sai)," (Oka Shinji) وافكر انني لن انتحر ابدا.
لا استطيع العيش بدون تفكير.لا أستطيع ان اقول بكل بساطه "اوه حسنا"
حتى المشيء..انا افكر بأفضل الطرق التي يمكنني المشي بها,او حتى الطريق الذي اسلكه يجب ان لايكون صعب علي,او حتى النظافه ايضا...انا افكر في طرق انظف بها بنفسي.
جسدي اصبح اكثر تصلبا.لا اعلم هل هو البرد ,أو ان مرضي اصبح اسوء,لكني اقع حتى لو انني امسك بشيء.لقد اصبح الوضع خطيرا لي لأذهب الى الطريق.الأن امي تحتاج الى توصلني الى المدرسه.قبل الذهاب الى العمل,تمر بالمدرسه.اتعلق على كتفها لأقف.ومن ثم تسرع الى صفي لتضع حقيبتي المدرسيه وغدائي.ومن ثم انا اشق طريقي ببطء الى الصف مرتكزه على الجدار.
بعد الانتهاء من الدرسه الساعه6 انتظر في محل الحلوى في الجهه المقابله للمدرسه.المراءه في المحل تخبرني بلطف انني استطيع حل وجباتي او القراءه.الأطفال الذين يتدربون يمرون بالمحل اثناء عودتهم.الوضع مخجل قليلا لكن يجب ان اتحمل لانه لا يوجد خيار اخر.
لقد سقطت مره اخرى عندما كنت ذاهبه الى الصف..لقد جرحت مرفقي الايمن بجروح طفيفه.
سيشان ساعدتني للنهوض.قبل ان اقل لها "شكرا" الدموع بدءت بالتساقط من عيناي ولم استطع ان اترجمها الى كلمات.
شيء مخيف عندما تمر ساعاتان بينما أنا استغرق في أحلام اليقظه وأشاهد الناس يأتون وأستمع الى محادثاتهم,آآآآآه أنا أضيع الوقت.
مؤلم هو ركوب الباص الى المدرسه,لكنه يشعرني بأنني لازلت "إنسان"
كنت أمشي (مع ان صديقتي كانت تساعدن)
إلا أنني أحسست بشخص يراقبني.
أستمريت بالمشيء بأحساس غريب.
و أستمريت بالمشي قليلا مع الشعور بعدم الارتياح عندما نظرت الى ما خلف ظهري ، سمعت صوت "محزن مظهرها...هل هي غبيه؟"
إمراءه بلا يدين تلد طلفه بصحه جيده.تغير الحفاض وترضع طفلتها رضاعه طبيعيه بأستخدام قدميها.لست متأكده هل يفترض أن أشعر بالسعاده من أجلها,لكن القلق يحاصرني.
أحس بقدمي اليمنى متصلبه.هذا يشعرني بإحباط
أصعب شيء علي هو ان امشي من فصل إلى آخر.يجب أن أستقبل المساعده من اصدقائي بالصف أو التشبث بأي شيء بينما أنا اشق طريقي خلال الممرات الطويله او السلالم.إنه يستغرق وقتا طويلا.لدرجه انني تسبب بتأخير أصدقائي عن الصف. وقت الغداء مشكله أيضا.الكل ينتهي من طعامه في خمس دقائق,أنا فقط احصل على لقمه او اثنتان في خمس دقائق.ليس هذا فقط بل علي ان ا أخذ الدواء ايضا.
عندما أحس بأنني لن استطيع ان انهي غدائي في الوقت المناسب.مباشرا ابتلع الدواء,ومن ثم انظر حولي,إذا رأيت شخص ما لازال يأكل ,أحاول قدر المستطاع ان اكل بسرعه.أتسأل كم من المرات انهيت غدائي فيها.
أحس بسؤء لاني لم انهي الغداء الذي حضر لي.لـــكن لايوجد وقت كافي.
عندما احاول ان ا أكل البقايا في البيت يقال لي"اعطه لكورو.تستطيعين الاكل عند العشاء"
آه ه ه ياله من هدر.غدائي كأنه ايا+كورو
يوكو شان و سي شان دائما يهبون للمساعده وكأنهم ظلالي.
"آسفه لتسبب بالمشاكل دائما"
"نحن أصدقاء ألسنا كذالك؟؟"
هذا فعلا يجعني احسن بكثير.
"الأصدقاء متعادلون" لكن ليس دائما.خصوصا في حالتي,يجب ان احمل او لن استطيع اكمال يومي الدراسي.
واخير فهمت لماذا الاساتذه يقولون لي دائما" ضعي جهد اكثر في محاوله المشيء معتمده على نفسك"
هنالك طريق واحد فقط لي.
ليس لي الحق في إختيار خياراتي.لن استطيع ابدا ان اختار ماقد يختاره اصدقائي.
إذا اقتعت نفسي بأنني سوف اختار ما قد يختاروه لن يكون لي اختياري الخاص.ورغبتي سوف تختفي.
اريد ان اذهب الى مكان ما...
اريد ان اضرب شيء ما بقوه هائله,اريد ان ارفع صوتي واصرخ مثل المجنونه,ثم اقع واضحك
الى اين اريد الذهاب....
المكتبه,صاله السينما,كافيه(اريد ان اجلس في الزاويه واشرب عصير الليمون المثلج) لكن في نهايه الامر ,لا أستطيع ان اذهبا لى اي مكان وحدي.
أحس بالشفقه,التعاسه ولا أستطيع ان افعل اي شيء لتحسينه. أنــــا فقط أبكي.
انا طفله كبيره.لكن ليس بيدي حيله الطفله الباكيه بداخلي لايمكن فصلها عني.
الأن استطيع البكاء بدون اي صوت وأنفي لن يتحول الى اللون الأحمر طلما لا اطيل في البكاء.لا شيء جيد في البكاء.انه يجعلني متعبه,وعيناي تنتفخان,وانفي ينغلق وهذا يسلب مني شهيتي...
مؤخرا اصبحت افتعل المشاجرات مع الناس.العلاقات مع الناس معقده.ليس لان هناك شيء سيء في الوضع وإنما الوصع ازداد سوء من دون ان انتبه له.
اعتقد بأنه مثل مرضي
*دموع*
now there's only one question in my mind
can we live without tears .?!
can we live without tears .?!
can we ?!
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